Published On: 10-24-2006 03:03 PM
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Well I just had another baby 3 weeks ago today.  I've been so stressed out with so many things.  I'm so overwhelmed.  I decided a long time ago that I wanted to breastfeed and that meant alot to me.  I found out when I got home it wasn't going to be easy.  With already having a 3 year old, school, and working I didn't think I Would be able to do it...I was right...I stopped after 1 week and I was so disapointed in myself.  The doctor put me on Welbutrin because I was crying everyday...that has gotten somewhat better.  My 3 year old drives me wild...he doesn't like to listen to anything Mom and Dad say...and bless his heart he tries to help with the new baby but he's always trying to touch his head and things and that makes me paranoid.  Anyways the big problem now is that I'm supposed to go back to work on November 14th and I really don't want to go back until the beginning of the year but I don't think we can afford it.  I can't picture myself putting my 6 week old son in daycare when he doesn't even have an immune system yet.  I told my husband with my luck he will get sick the first day and I will have to miss work.  At my work we don't have sick days.  You call off you get a point for everyday you miss and if you get 12 points you're fired, no questions asked.  We don't have any family that can watch them that are halfway decent, and those that can will smoke around them or let them get so dirty that I will have to take bleach to them when they get home...o yeah plus they want to paid for the horrible job they do.  I've been trying to rack my brain to figure out how I can make money until the beginning of the year while staying at home.  While I've been looking on the internet for things it looks like they are all scams...go figure.  I've been praying like crazy about this and hopefully God will come into my life and give me a solution soon, because I haven't got that much time.  Pray for me.